“I don't know if this hadn't happened. I'm not sure how long I would have kind of kept going the way I was feeling.”

To be honest, I was in a really bad way. I was feeling very suicidal and had been for a few years. I had a lot of pain in my body. My head was very clouded. I felt like everything was just hopeless. You know, my nervous system was just constantly fight, flight kind of. And I just didn't know what to do. I was really, really like, I don't know, like, I really feel like I've just saved me in a sense, because I don't know if this hadn't happened. I'm not sure how long I would have kind of kept going the way I was feeling. So it really did, you know, I just couldn't believe how I walked in there, pretty much just a broken shell of a man, you know, trying to hide it. And then kind of walked out the other side of it, feeling like almost a newborn baby again or a little kid who is just happy and laughing and loving it, full of joy, full of just absolute beauty, just so excited and interested, where I just lost all interest in everything. And I kind of went there. I'm like, I hope this, I hope this does something, because if it doesn't, I don't know kind of like where I'm going to be and what I'm going to do. I'm really sick of feeling the way I am. And I think sometimes you don't realise how bad things are, because you're going through them. And it's not until something really changes radically that you go, wow, that was, that was some really, really shitty, bad feeling fucking times. And my head's, you know, and I feel like my head space is clearer. My pain has gone away from my back and my knees and my legs. And I usually have a lot of pain. I fell off a horse when I was like 12 and really, really hurt my back. And I've always had that pain throughout my life, where I kind of walk around like stiff and don't really exercise as much as I can. Don't run. Don't do a lot of stuff because it hurts my back, you know. And I remember sitting there while Clayton was finishing off the [Vādma] session with the rest of the group. And I was like, maybe 20 minutes or something. Usually by 10 minutes in, I've got pins and needles in my legs. And I was just sitting there so happy, so content, no pain, nothing, just joyous. I couldn't find anything that really, you know, made me feel like I wanted to shine or anything. You know, I was just so like, just lost and depressed and just, everything felt hopeless, you know. Yeah, it was just, it was horrible. It was horrible. It really was. I was talking to a friend about it today and I just broke down. I was like, because I remember feeling, you know, and then talking to me now, they're like, you're so different. You're like a different person. In the moment, you know, just like fading out all the time and acting like you're, you know, I used to seem uninterested, but my focus, I just couldn't hold focus. Start thinking about other things, you know, trying to listen to people. They just think I'm being rude because I can't fucking stay in the moment. And then I'm thinking about so many other things that it's really affecting me around people. And they just kind of get this idea that like, what's wrong with him? Like, he's just... I was constantly just nervous. I was constantly anxious, not feeling good enough, constantly beating myself up about things. Yeah, it was just horrible. And coming out the other side of that, I feel like I've just been given a new chance at life. Everything's been like renewed, you know, and I couldn't be happier. I can't believe really, like, how different I feel. Like, it's just a whole different person. It's just a whole [Vādma] reset. Like, it's well-named because it really does. It does reset you. And it's not woo-woo. It's the most amazing thing that's happened to me. And this is like day two of it. And I'm just, I'm happier than I've been in a long time. Like, I realised how unhappy and unstable my mental health was. Like, it's been that way for at least 10, 15 years. And all of a sudden, it was like, I woke up, you know, out of a black cloud. And I can see the sun again. I can feel everything. I'm a musician. I started playing the guitar. And I was like, it sounds amazing. It feels really good. And I'm just really enjoying myself. It was like when I was a 13-year-old when I first started. So, well, I was on the fence when I first heard about it, you know. And I've just, I've never seen anything like it before. My mother was actually a spiritual healer and did Reiki and a whole bunch of different things. But none of it was like this in-depth and this kind of thorough as in getting, you know, the things out of you that you don't need anymore. You know, we've got a lot of pain and trauma that's gone through the years. But it's like the lesson's still there, you know, but you don't feel the energy from it anymore. So, I'm so excited, you know, for the rest of my life, you know. But after two days already, I'm like, wow, this is some profound kind of amazing, you know. I don't know how to explain it. I don't think you can really explain it until you do it, you know. Like even when I first come along, I was like, is this woo-woo? What is it? What is it? Who's this Clayton guy? What? He's going to reset my nervous system and make me feel better again? Okay, well, what are we talking about, you know. But he absolutely did and just blew my mind. And everyone else in the room and everyone around us was just like, wow, you know. And it's just the best money I've ever spent on my health ever and my mental health by far. And it's just the best money I've ever spent on my health ever and my mental health. And I'm like, wow, I'm so excited. And I'm like, wow.